One Way Forward

I yearn to return, but of course I cannot,
to a place and a time, maybe best left forgot
there is no time machine,
or a portal, that I can pass through,
so sadly , one way, is all I can do
forward, forward, my time lingers on,
a second closer to death, another minute passed on
another minute away from when I felt truely alive, those hours gone
from when I lay in her bed
in a place where my heart was alive, andnot dead
there will never be a way
just the memory of the days that may even be twisted out of lies
where one by one the butterflies died and turned into balls of pain
in my belly and the roof of my chest
in this time I must remain
there is no going backwards, there is no time machine or a portal that I can pass through

so one way, is all I can do
Maybe I hope,
before they lay me to rest
that time, time it knows best.